Wednesday, November 18, 2009

Fishing With A Straight Hook


















Here's a little Katagiri Roshi for ya on how Zen teachers fish. I've inserted a little biographical material and used Andy Ferguson's translation of Tokujo's poem.


Letting down the line ten thousand feet,
A single breaking wave makes ten thousand ripples.
At night in still water, the cold fish won’t bite.
An empty boat filled with moonlight returns.

This is a poem by Sensu Tokujo (Chinese, Chuanzi Decheng) who was one of the disciples of Yakusan Zen master.  Yakusan lived in China in the eighth century.  Since Tokujo lived toward the end of the eighth century to the middle of the ninth. 

In July, 845, agitation was a foot for expelling Buddhism by the emperor's proclamation.  The emperor was really strong believer of Taoism so he tried to ruin Buddhism in China. It is said that government destroyed 4,400 temples and also they also forced almost 280,000 monks and nuns to return to secular life.  

Tokujo was living at that time. [After studying with Yakusan for thirty years and receiving the mind seal, he told his dharma friends, Daowu and Yunyan, “You two must each go into the world in separate ways and uphold the essence of our teacher’s path. My own nature is undisciplined. I delight in doing as I please. I’m not fit [to be head of a monastery]. But remember where I reside and if you come upon persons of great ability, send one of them to me. Let me teach him and I’ll pass on to him everything I’ve learned in life. In this way I can repay the kindness of our late teacher.”]

Tokujo was one of the monks that returned to secular life and he worked on a boat. People called him “boat monk” (Sensu). Everyday he worked to support himself and also practiced zazen on the boat. 

One day one of the government officers came and asked him, "What are you doing every day?" 

Tokujo immediately held the boat oar straight up in the air and asked, "Do you understand?" 

The officer said, "No, I don't understand." 

Tokujo said "If you only row in calm water, it is rare to find a golden fish."

You don't like carp but in China carp is one of the wonderful fish, a symbol of the mature person.

Even though he was a boatman, he was still a Zen monk.  That’s why the officer asked him "What are you doing everyday?" 

Tokujo held the boat oar straight up, maybe meaning “I am always working as the boatman and trying to find his successor, but it's pretty hard.” 

He couldn't find a disciple he really loved.  That's why he’s holding up the oar. Look. Look!

The officer, however, didn't understand it, so Tokujo explained. 

That's why his poem says a thousand foot fishing line hangs straight down including hook. There is a hook but that hook is not a curved hook.  It is a very straight hook. A thousand means eternally, forever he does this always.

Every day Tokujo held up the oar means he cast out the fishing line to get a golden fish.  But his hook is straight. It's pretty hard but I think if there is someone who gets this straight hook, he is a great practitioner.

As soon as one wave moves, ten thousand waves follow.  A thousand foot line hangs straight down means Buddha's world and phenomenal world are directly connected, linked.  Eternally forever it is connected, with our intellectual sense to know it. 

In everyday life we are always creating one wave and simultaneously a ten thousand waves spread all over. This is our life. Buddha's world and human world are connected without any gap between.  Yet, we always create one wave simultaneously ten thousand waves spread out. 

"At night in still cold water, the fish won’t bite.” “Still night” is a symbol of the peaceful world, perfect world of the truth.  “Night is still and water is cold” means there is no space for emotions and your individual experiences, intellectual understanding, there is no space for them to get into.  In common sense, it is pretty cold water for us because we don't understand the truth is exactly us without any gap. 

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

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Sunday, November 15, 2009

To Study the Self in Second Life















I'm going to give Second Life a whirl and give a talk at Kannonji on Sunday, 6pm CST (UMT -6), November 29. I thinking of talking about studying the self in this virtual environment where identify creation seems so salient. 

If you'd like to check it out, here's how:

Click Here to visit Kannonji in Second Life
(requires client application install


The photo is of Kannonji with "my" avatar standing near the altar. My 13-year old son and I have been having a great time exploring this world - an incredible presentation of the human mind. Enjoy.

In the Burning World, Why Study Dogen?


















There's a bunch of themes tugging at me today, including my upcoming talk at Kannoji in Second Life and the Zazenshin book that I've started but want to find more time for. 

In addition, in the virtual practice period we've begun to get into some conflict - necessary and healthy - and are beginning to explore some issues around boundaries in the cyber world. I'll save that for another day....

In the nonvirtual practice period, we've recently had a session on the study of Dogen - what is it good for? This was provoked a couple sessions back when Tetsugan shared her concerns about how to help regular people in her social work internship, not weirdos like those of us inclined to the luxury of spending lots of time on little black cushions and/or contemplating a 13th century monk in medieval Japan who spoke in riddles and never had a sexual relationship, a job or a mortgage (from "weirdos" on that's my liberal paraphrase). 

How does Dogen study serve people? Here's a smattering of remarks from the session and then some thoughts of my own (and some Dogen too, of course). You are welcome to chime in too with a comment.
- "Goes with the territory of studying Zen."

- "So we don't get a big head and are thrown into constant groundlessness."
- "I study Dogen because that's what I do." 
- "That's what my teacher studies."
- "I know it benefits me. People say I'm calm and can listen to them."
- "Dogen is so subtle that to be 'real,' study requires lots of zazen."
- "Dogen's teaching is so subtle that without lots of zazen, my understanding is merely intellectual or theoretical."

- "Dogen is deep and subtle - shallow understanding doesn't stand up the the crucible of daily life."
- "As a 'luxury,' study can help refresh us so that we have energy to serve others."

In my view, this world is on fire and it seems likely that some rough times are ahead. The always-in-motion future is hard to see so we cannot really know what will really help. 

Therefore, it's really important that some people devote themselves to directly helping those suffering the most with poverty, illness, war and ignorance; that others devote themselves to politics at all levels; that others live a quiet life just taking care of their families and themselves as best they can; and that others do their utmost to plumb the depths of the great traditions so that what they have to offer in their deepest and most subtle dimension can be preserved and handed on to the "helpless ones" (a Crazy Horse phrase) in the future (helpless now because they depend on us). 

Personally, why do I choose to study Dogen? Before Katagiri-roshi died, I asked him to live for another 20 years, at least. "I'm too stubborn and stupid for you to die now," I said. "I know who you are," he said. "Anyway, I will always be there with you."

And when I study and offer what I can of Dogen's Zen (from my hinky perspective, of course), Katagiri and I do it together and he's really here with me. 

From within Dogen studies, the reason to study at all is to complement dropping body-and-mind in zazen. In other words, to counteract the tendency to simply rehearse our pathology in zazen and life we directly challenge, illuminate, and transform our mental formations (which aren't apart from body). 

Dogen talks about this in his "Points to Watch in Buddha Training," part 10, "Jikige joto." Here's how Roshi explains this phrase (from p. 105 Keep Me in Your Heart Awhile: The Haunting Zen of Dainin Katagiri):


Jikige is “direct,” no gap between. Jo of joto is to receive, absorb, or to assimilate. To is “it.” “It” is the identity with the ultimate, exactly the fundamental itself. Together, “joto” means to assimilate, receive, and actualize it. We are it so we have to digest it and then we can actualize what we are. It does not come from outside. Jikige joto is direct assimilating and actualizing it.

Saturday, November 14, 2009

The Air Humans Fly In: Genjokoan Webinar 8


Here's webinar 8 on the Genjokoan (click here and when the video roles, click View and Video). 

Palpable community development in here in the cyber version of Wild Fox Zen. I'm very encouraged to continue playing in this air. Here's the passage we're working this week. 

What story from your life illuminates a piece of this?


When a fish swims, no matter how far it goes,
it doesn't reach the end of the water. 
When a bird flies, no matter how high it flies,
it cannot reach the end of the sky. 
Only, when their activity is great, their range is large. 
When their activity is small, their range is  small.
In this way, each fish and each bird uses the whole space
and vigorously acts in every place.
However, if a bird departs from the sky, or a fish leaves the water,
they immediately die.
We should know that, water means life, sky means life.
A bird is life; a fish is life.  Life is a bird; life is a fish. 
And we should go beyond this. 
There is practice-enlightenment - the way of limited and unlimited life.

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Desire for Annihilation



















A practitioner emailed me recently about the flip side of the fear of annihilation - what I see Dogen reassuringly addressing by bringing up in the moon-in-the-water metaphor (click here) - by raising the desire for annihilation:

I'm going through one of my cyclical periods where zazen is... unsatisfying... even a bit turbulent: the 'old black dogs' from the past are growling at each other a bit down there/up here and I get that grating frustration that comes with the uncertainty that 'I'm not doing it right' or that 'I could do it better'... I found myself in the back garden tonight having my 'occasional cigarette,' and I stood looking up at the cloudy night sky. I closed my eyes and said to myself, 'Take me away.' I just stood there and let that desire go and the night spread... a sort of resolution. 

This has been an important issue in my own practice too. Seems to me that there is a subtle difference between Way Mind aspiration to drop the whole works and the desire for annihilation. The desire for annihilation arises from our self-hatred, it seems to me, while Way Mind blooms from compassion - may I become a Buddha to carry all beings across. 

And there is a distinct body difference. Way-Mind-dropping-it-all is relaxed and warm, even passionate. Desire for annihilation is tight and cool or even cold, craving escape and especially common among transcendent types.

Buddha addressed this (although I can't think of a Dogen passage that does - perhaps suggesting mental frailty on my part or that in his cultural milieu desire for annihilation wasn't much of a problem or recognized) saying, 

One who is liberated abandons craving for being without relishing non-being.

Nicely put, no? Liberation is neither this nor that - now where have you heard that before?! 

Also, the thirst for non-being is listed as one of the views that keeps us fettered to swirling in our heads and is just the flip side of the view of a permanent self. 

Our practice is to let go of it all, again and again. The view that we're not doing it right as well as the view that we're doing it right. The desire for being (and concomitant fear of annihilation) and the desire for non-being (and the concomitant hardening of the categories).

Saturday, November 7, 2009

Thinking That You've Got It: Genjokoan Webinar 7









H
ere's the webinar from this morning: Click here.


As usual, after you get the recording going, click View and then Video.

We're working with the following passage this week that points to opening our hearts to a perspective that we haven't appreciated before - getting ourselves upside-down, if you will. This one is also about getting over our selves and our attainments.


[10]When the Dharma has not yet fully penetrated into body and mind, one thinks that one is already filled with the dharma. When the dharma fills the body and mind, one thinks that something is [still] lacking.

For example, when we sail a boat into the ocean beyond sight of land and when our eyes scan [the horizon in] the four directions, it simply looks like a circle.  No other shape appears.  This great ocean, however, is neither round nor square.  It has inexhaustible characteristics.  [To a fish], it looks like a palace; [to a heavenly being] a jeweled necklace.  [To us] as far as our eyes can see, it looks like a circle.

All the myriad things are like this.  Within the dusty world and beyond, there are innumerable aspects and characteristics; we only see or grasp as far as the power of our eye of study and practice can see.

When we listen to the reality of myriad things, we must know that there are inexhaustible characteristics in either an ocean or mountains and there are many other worlds in the four directions.  This is true not only in the external world, but it is the same right under our feet or within a single drop of water.